I've realized that I've been holding myself back because I didn't think my works were that great or where I needed them to be. I was waiting until my story skills and drawing skills were "perfect". It had a negative more of a negative effect. How can I grow if I don't let my feet get wet with experience. Jumping into the writing contest held by

, I realized how to have fun with my writing again. I do think there is a time for training and building certain skills (and the warrior principle says that training is an ongoing, heart strong process), but I shouldn't shut myself away from sharing what I can do now. I may learn more than what I might've keeping things to myself. Even the things I don't share and the frustrations of not being as great as I want to be are stepping stones. I'm not going to just post everything XD. But I'm going to make an effort to really submit works worth submitting, and growing from there. It's fine to have goals and checkpoints of where I want to be with my art and writing for a story or for a manga, but I shouldn't hold myself back any longer. Perfection will continue to be strived for in hope of reaching levels worthy and beyond my abilities of previous works. Now, it's time for anatomy and manga training XD.
I know you know all this bro, you are constantly seeking and finding and growing... but maybe someone else, who hasn't had this light come on yet will read this... and you never know...
My dad used to say, "growth is in the struggle." I believe that.
I also think that to be a well balanced martial artist (or mangaka) one has to do kata (mosha or mimicking the masters), drills (pencil work, plot work, story work, script work, name work or thumbnails with dialogue), bag work (inking practice), and sparring (making their own manuscript or final draft). They also have to study manuscripts and scrolls, read interviews and talk to people... maybe even meet a master to study under or find a community to study with, or study the nature of things itself.
However you slice it, if you want to really do it well, this is serious stuff. & I believe, you are on the right path. & I believe this, here, with these people, is a good place to do it.
We are all in this together.
okay I'm done.
*poof*
you just gotta keep chugging on and putting up stuff. It helps you build an audience and gets you critique, which can only help you improve.
I'm all for seeing more work from you, so please do update more often xD